Anybody Seriously Need To Tell About Trauma But Can Not Unless Asked

I've read so many posts regarding the awful feelings about having to disclose injury facts for your t, although I hope this is simply not totally crazy. I'm coping with the opposite.

I have several 'troubles' that I'm conscious of from an emotionally/verbally abusive step-father to an adult that I trusted as being a maternal figure that showed she'd other tips for your relationship in high-school... Then what's daily becoming more of a conviction that I've repressed very early neglect (I have always had dangers but am not reading his and my style in my own brain and it isnot satisfying exchange of words)... I have NEVER told details of any one of this stuff. I've stated to 2 people that "anything" happened with this particular person I respected and that was the level. I am plagued by images, small movie in my mind of those from the and today these voices of what I believe.

Does this make sense to EVERYONE? I know I would be EXTREMELY embaressed to say the items I'd have to and that I hope it isn't something sick making me want to... But I am worried we are going to spend years because he thinks I am worried tiptoeing around the facts and I am seriously wanting to pour the beans. I hope I can tell him this, however it is not allowed.

I also have discovered that I can't tell him ANYTHING if he doesn't ask and am dealing with at. I've told him this and he is great at wanting to ask me questions. The thing is, I also can not tell him what to ask. I understand it may appear totally ridiculous, however it is like I'm banned to just freely tell things-but I am allowed to answer honestly. He's gone forward and backward about 'running' stress and then I think I am so calm about things going on that he does not think they are and begins to consider we need to get another way. I get so upset after I hear him speak about not addressing the stress particularly and acquire Tell About Stress very frustrated and want to stop trust about ever getting relief. It's like I KNOW I've to have out these facts but I can't tell him that. I believe he's also worried I cannot manage coping with the injury right due to my panic attacks, but I really don't know how to change any of this. He covers trying to take action with as little detail and injury as possible and that I have read about all these new techniques to handle PTSD without detailed handling, but I would like it bad.